Sunday, February 21, 2010

Topic A

To say that he changed my life is a bit of an understatement. He quite literally grasped hold of it, unconsciously molded it into a more refined form, and set it moving down a new path, my new path, into a wholly new future. He taught me more about human bonds, values, and truths than my fifteen years of life ever had up to that point, through typed words on a page, mere stories and mental blurbs that he had seen fit to share with those who found out where to look. We have never met face to face, yet both know each other as few know us. He is a mystery and a mentor. He is the Notemaker.


I never enjoyed English. Like so many others, the slightest hint of an essay assignment of any sort caused me to groan aloud. Writing was a tedious chore at best, and one that never seemed to have much merit. Sure, I could tell you how to build a snowman, or persuade you to buy me a new puppy, or analyze the rhetoric that a lawyer wielded in a closing argument, or closely read a poem for minute changes in tone that were just so important, but what was the point? There were other pursuits much more worthy of my attention, subjects that granted immediate benefits that I could plainly understand. I was giving attention to just such a subject, browsing an internet forum I frequent, when I skimmed over a new topic. Another member, known as dominic peters, was plugging a blog he had recently started, claiming it was not quite a blog, but instead merely a collection of his mental processes in written form. Literally having nothing better to do, I decided to give it a glance. A phrase greeted my eyes on that front page that I shall not ever forget: “Man has already achieved immortality. It has simply been abused, forgotten, and renamed writing.” Those words alone sparked a feeling in me that had faded long ago, a sense of dreaming romanticism, the belief that really, anything was indeed possible. I continued reading. Essays, short stories, one-liners, dreaded poetry, simplistic blurbs, complex theses; all these were devoured by my eyes and mind, and gradually, my heart. I was amazed, plainly and simply. Public education had never shown me this side of the English language, had never caused me to appreciate it in such a way, had never taught me that it could even be used in such a manner. Hours ticked away, and my eyes grew tired, but still I could not stop reading. As I finally reached his very first entry, it dawned on me. Dom is only a couple of years older than me. I could do it too. I had to do it too. He had messages, many of them, which he wanted to spread to all the world, even if only through one person at a time. He knew that progress would be slow, mired in the stubbornness of people to change, but he pressed on anyway, entering word by impassioned word as they came to mind. Sometimes he expressed frustration at the self-perceived lack of quality in his work, but shrugged it off anyway. Nothing is ever wonderful the first time. Sometimes he would be stumped for a topic, only to take something completely random and transform it into a philosophical masterpiece. All of which he inadvertently passed down to me.


I immediately started my own blog, started writing, of all things, for the fun of it. I woke up from a horribly muted slumber into a bright new world of expression. Mathematics could never change the world, or people’s preconceptions, or a saddened heart into a bright one in quite the same way poetry could. Science could never hope to make one feel the very same as prose. There was at last a way to try and fix all the problems a teenager such as myself felt needed fixing. I had simply never seen it before. I can, and will change the world, one letter at a time.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

On Syrma

Syrma
(n.)
A long dress, trailing on the floor, worn by tragic actors in Greek and Roman theaters.

A name chosen to reflect the human attraction to tragedy, how we as human beings take delight in reading or hearing or seeing of the misfortunes of other people. No calamity can ever be so catastrophic as those revolving around ourselves, but in discovering them, we can take solace in the fact that they have not happened to us. We do not enjoy them because we enjoy suffering, no. We are just thankful that we are not the characters in that play, the bits in the horror story, the victims in the car crash. We drag along behind such tragedies, staying as close as we possibly can, immersing ourselves as much as possible, without actually becoming involved. The dangerous proximity just adds to the thrill, we say. That could happen to us, we say. We hope it does not, we pray. Is that the truth?

A moniker selected to push through the facade of everyday tragedy, acted out as convincingly as possible, to garner the largest audience we can. Human beings constantly thirst for an audience, attention, and so may, every once in a blue moon (we say), exaggerate a recount of what was surely just as terrible and emotional as our words make it seem. No catastrophe could ever be so calamitous as what happened to me!, we think, and in this thought, we allow others to comfort themselves in our supposed misery. All we wanted was some comfort, some proof that though cosmic forces may spit on our shadows, human beings still care for our well-being. It is not as though we are really acting, really pretending to bear suffering, we say.



A pseudonym
picked at random
because I liked how it sounded.

The end.

Conversing

I want to write

Then write...?

But...I can't...

Oh? And why not?

Because...

Because...?

I don't know

Oh come now. You must have a reason

Um...I've been busy..?

That...is a blatant lie.

That's not true!

Hum. You spend more time texting than reading tropes, more time reading tropes than playing games, more time playing games than being on Facebook, more time on Facebook than doing your homework, and more time doing your homework than writing

So what am I doing now?

Writing...in the dark. You can't even see this!

Well. I like it.

You prefer writing in the pitch, unable to see a letter, to typing on a brightly lit computer screen?

I do believe so

Preposterous.

Do you even know what that means?

Well...erm..take out the pre...you have posterous...looks like posterior...

Which is exactly what you sound like, trying to help me this way

Prepostero-oh, damn it.

I'm so relieved to know I've been reduced to verbal slapstick

In the dark.

Oh, give it a rest. It's more fun this way.

If you say so. You're the one talking to himself.

Oh? What are you doing?

The same. But! You started it.

Another level down! We're really making, nay, crafting an elegantly picturesque contraction of the lower calf in the most definitely not incorrect facing, on the y-axis, that shall be sung of in the ballads of gallant troubadours, reenacted by all theatrical hopefuls, enshrined in the memorials of history's heroes, for all glistening eternity.

Don't you mean z..? Ugh. Cut with the purple. You're awful at it anyway.

Then what color should I write in?

Oh! That is a fun idea! Let's write in a rainbow of styles!

You mean make up arbitrary writing facades to go with our own preconceptions of what a color should mean

Well...when you put it that way, yes.

Sounds good. Tomorrow?

Second period?

Excellent

Doubly so. We already have purple.

Quite. Hm.

Hm?

Should we do Indigo?